303. Enough is Enough

This “earthprobe”…


My earthprobe.


Is this a small part of what “finding yourself” means?


And couldn’t I have “found myself” more conveniently on the beach at Waikiki? Or did I have to say goodbye and go—“cell in the stream, fish in the flow” as I put it back then to really "find myself" good?


Is there “something” deep in me, maybe something “spiritual” that somehow “knows” what experiences I need to “become myself”—something that somehow drives the events of my life and perhaps even provides the necessary “right experiences”?


I don't know, but this is a mystery most mysterious for me!


But honestly, this “Temple of the Monkeys” in Nepal is emblematic of the kind of place where an ignorant monkey like me would be destined to “find himself”!


I believe I have reached the end of this portion of the wandering path of my earthprobing. I do not have the strength or the will to return to India and continue traveling east by land until I come to land’s end.


China and Russia are closed to US citizens now. We Americans are at war in Viet Nam.


I am broke and bone-weary.


This is enough and enough is plenty. Enough is enough. Snuff, snuff!

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